News.

I went to see my doctor today and he says i'm good to go!! I am feeling so much better. The pain that caused me to go to the doctor in the first place is gone too! My doctor said the biggest problem he saw was my bladder. But because my pain is gone we're not going to start the medication. We're going to go ahead and wait to see if it comes back! I'm really hoping that it doesn't come back but we'll see. The Endometriosis he did find wasn't bad enough to be the cause of pain. He removed it and we'll check on it in about 6 months. The cervical displaysia that they removed will also be something we check on in 6 months. So i think that my odds are very good! I am hoping it will be the end of the hell! ha ha!

Update.

I haven't blogged in quite awhile! Life has been a little hectic lately that is for sure. I had my surgery on July 23rd. It went really well and i feel like i am finally healed up and ready to go. I can't wait to get back into the swing of things. Honestly the thing i miss most is walking. I see two of my neighbors every night on their walk and i get so jealous! It seems pretty silly that i would get jealous over that, considering how i have been the past 4 or 5 years. Exercise hasn't really been my cup of tea for awhile. I think a little while after i was diagnosed with Fibromyalsia i just started slowly giving up. It's a little depressing to be sitting her today, looking at my life, and realizing that i gave up on myself. I have had so many ups and downs but survived none the less. I think what i'm starting to realize now is that i want to start building myself up. It's becoming more and more apparent to me just how much i left undone. I want to really finish up a lot of things. Dot my T's and cross my I's i guess in a sense. Maybe go to college or start some school. Start examining my life and weeding out all the negativity. I want to deep clean and get rid of all the junk i seem to hold on to. It kind of goes along with the way i am finally letting go of all the things i held inside for the longest time. I feel a lot of freedom now especially emotionally. I'm hoping that my next step to feeling free is in my physical state. I can't even begin to tell you how tired i am of feeling the way i do. I am in pain from the time i wake up to when i go to bed. I am 21 years old and i don't know what happened. This is definitely not what i want for myself. The thing that sticks out most to me is that i want to be able to be a mother. I don't want to be moaning and groaning all the time. So i really want to start doing more! Hopefully things start looking up! I also need to keep up with my blog. It really does help to be able to vent ... obviously ^^^^ ha ha ha.