Day 1: I couldn't be more thankful to have Bry in my life. I find myself wondering how i got so lucky. I've never met a more forgiving and patient person. We have our ups and downs but we always get back up. It's amazing what you can do when you have the right person beside you. Thank you Bryant Fullmer for being mine. For always standing by me. For taking care of me when i couldn't take care of myself. I will never be able to repay what you have done for me. You are the strongest person i know! I love you sweetheart. Forever. For Always. And No Matter What.
Day 2: All my life i didn't want kids. In fact i dislike them very much. But here i am a mom to the most beautiful
little girl. Although she is getting quite the attitude(no idea where she got it)...she is the sweetest little girl. I know
we are given exactly what we can handle. And i am insanely grateful for that as well. She is the most easy going and low maintenance child. Except when she is awnry. Then she has fire in her eyes. In which case you should run...far away....Anyway, if you asked me 4 years ago if i thought i would be a mom i probably would have laughed at you. For me all it took was meeting the one man i knew would be the father of my children someday. And he is everything i knew he would be. So here we are & i am so thankful for our sweet girl. She is such a blessing! Life sure would be boring & quiet without her hahah! Luna Bean i hope you know i love you. Endlessly and Unconditionally. No Matter What Baby! Always.
Day 3: After smoking for 7 years i am more than thankful to say November is my 9th month smoke free. It feels so amazing! Proud of myself.
Day 4: I'm grateful that my health has actually been good lately! Sometimes my health can be so depressing. But i've been feeling really good and it's been so nice. I know it's been relieving for Bry too and that makes it even better. Hope it lasts!
Day 5: The bond my husband and i share. He loves me endlessly and unconditionally. The kind you rarely hear of anymore. Grateful & Thankful don't even begin to cover it. I am truly the luckiest girl in the world. How i ever got this lucky i have no idea. I hope one day i will repay him for what he has done for me. I love you Bry. Thank you for being my everything & sticking around regardless of all the bullshit. You are the best man and the purest heart. I don't deserve you one bit.
Day 6: I'm thankful for chances. Especially when i'm given entirely too many which i don't deserve. It's time to pay the hell attention.
Day 7: I'm thankful for the patience my husband has for me. Not many people will deal with my anger and crazy lady problems. I only wish i had more control over my emotions and how i experess them. Maybe one of these days i'll be thankful for that ; ) hahah.
Day 8: I'm thankful to have a job i love. I was skeptical about being away from Luna but it works well with our schedule. I'm also thankful Luna has so many grandparents who help us when we need a babysitter. I'm not sure what we'd do without you. I can't even tell you how grateful i am for you all.
Day 9: I am thankful to have insurance. And to be able to go to the doctor when i need to! It is such a blessing! Especially given that i am like a 70 year old woman stuck in a 21 year old body. Woof. I am also thankful i have a sweethusband who takes cares of me when i don't feel good. No matter how often i am sick. It's the best medicine.
Day 10: I am thankful for the power of forgiveness. Not just to maintain or fix relationships. But so that you can let go of a grudge and move on regardless of how the relationship ends up afterwards. It's pretty crazy what happens when you decided to hold onto something and not forgive.
Day 11: I am so happy to have all my brothers and sisters. I can't imagine my life without them. I want you all to know just how thankful i am for each and every one of you. You all play your own special role. Even if we don't see each other often. I am so proud of all of you & where you are going in life! Love you!
Day 12: I'm grateful to be (partially) woken up by my husband kissing me goodbye in the mornings. Love that feeling.
Day 13: I am thankful for the amazing support we have. I don't know how we would have survived all these years. I have the best parents(inlaws). We may have our disagreements but you guys do more than most parents are even willing to do. I hope you know how grateful we are. I know we will never be able to repay the love, kindness, selflessness, and support you have showed us. I'm sorry if my actions or mouth ever convince you otherwise. I love you from the bottom of my heart! Even when i want to give you a good shake & slap ; )
Day 14: I am grateful to have dishes, toys, and messes to clean up. Because i have a HOME to clean, TOOLS to clean it, and a FAMILY to make it dirty all over again. I only wish i had the motivation to clean more often. If it's a little messy when you come over i'm sorry but we actually LIVE in here.
Day 15: I am grateful for the power of healing. Also for how relationships can grow, evolve, and become stronger than before. Especially for the better. I want you to know that i love you Mom. I am so thankful for you in my life and the relationship we have! You have taught me so much as a mother and best friend. Thank you so much for being mine and an amazing Nan! I love spending time with you and just hanging out! Not many people get that! Here's to the future ;) !! Can't wait for our insane gingerbread houses and Christmas party!
Day 16: I am thankful for honest people. Sometimes it pisses me off but i sure as hell appreciate it. I am thankful for you Chelsey Bennett. I am glad that being with Bry brought you into my life! I do wish we talked more and that you still lived in Heber. But i am so happy for you & your little family. You finally got your house & John is so happy with his job. People don't realize how important
Day 6: I'm thankful for chances. Especially when i'm given entirely too many which i don't deserve. It's time to pay the hell attention.
Day 7: I'm thankful for the patience my husband has for me. Not many people will deal with my anger and crazy lady problems. I only wish i had more control over my emotions and how i experess them. Maybe one of these days i'll be thankful for that ; ) hahah.
Day 8: I'm thankful to have a job i love. I was skeptical about being away from Luna but it works well with our schedule. I'm also thankful Luna has so many grandparents who help us when we need a babysitter. I'm not sure what we'd do without you. I can't even tell you how grateful i am for you all.
Day 9: I am thankful to have insurance. And to be able to go to the doctor when i need to! It is such a blessing! Especially given that i am like a 70 year old woman stuck in a 21 year old body. Woof. I am also thankful i have a sweethusband who takes cares of me when i don't feel good. No matter how often i am sick. It's the best medicine.
Day 10: I am thankful for the power of forgiveness. Not just to maintain or fix relationships. But so that you can let go of a grudge and move on regardless of how the relationship ends up afterwards. It's pretty crazy what happens when you decided to hold onto something and not forgive.
Day 11: I am so happy to have all my brothers and sisters. I can't imagine my life without them. I want you all to know just how thankful i am for each and every one of you. You all play your own special role. Even if we don't see each other often. I am so proud of all of you & where you are going in life! Love you!
Day 12: I'm grateful to be (partially) woken up by my husband kissing me goodbye in the mornings. Love that feeling.
Day 13: I am thankful for the amazing support we have. I don't know how we would have survived all these years. I have the best parents(inlaws). We may have our disagreements but you guys do more than most parents are even willing to do. I hope you know how grateful we are. I know we will never be able to repay the love, kindness, selflessness, and support you have showed us. I'm sorry if my actions or mouth ever convince you otherwise. I love you from the bottom of my heart! Even when i want to give you a good shake & slap ; )
Day 14: I am grateful to have dishes, toys, and messes to clean up. Because i have a HOME to clean, TOOLS to clean it, and a FAMILY to make it dirty all over again. I only wish i had the motivation to clean more often. If it's a little messy when you come over i'm sorry but we actually LIVE in here.
Day 15: I am grateful for the power of healing. Also for how relationships can grow, evolve, and become stronger than before. Especially for the better. I want you to know that i love you Mom. I am so thankful for you in my life and the relationship we have! You have taught me so much as a mother and best friend. Thank you so much for being mine and an amazing Nan! I love spending time with you and just hanging out! Not many people get that! Here's to the future ;) !! Can't wait for our insane gingerbread houses and Christmas party!
Day 16: I am thankful for honest people. Sometimes it pisses me off but i sure as hell appreciate it. I am thankful for you Chelsey Bennett. I am glad that being with Bry brought you into my life! I do wish we talked more and that you still lived in Heber. But i am so happy for you & your little family. You finally got your house & John is so happy with his job. People don't realize how important
that is! I'm sorry we don't visit often...hell i'm sorry we haven't seen your house yet! But I want you to know that i love you and i appreciate you in my life! You are a great friend and i'm glad you aren't fake with me. Just be a little nicer ; ) I'm sensitive! hahahah Just kidding. Anyway, I just needed you to know you are important to me! How about we talk more. Jerk! : )
Day 17: So thankful that on days i'm feeling down i can drive to my mom's house. Enough said.
Day 18: I'm thankful for my sweet husband. Yep, once again. Sorry folks. I am entirely too grateful i have a man who accepts me and loves me for who i am. Especially when i am sick or hurting. I know it has to be annoying after awhile but he never shows it.
Day 19: I'm thankful that at some point Luna will take a nap today. And shortly after, later on tonight i will be able to go to sleep for the day. Woof.
Day 20: Grateful to have a counselor who talks me off of numerous "cliffs".
Day 21: Thankful for my sweet little girl. Poor girl is teething and going through a growth spurt. Woke up at 11 and went back to sleep at 3 for almost 3 1/2 more hours. Poor thing. Here's hoping she feels better for tomorrow!
Day 22: We decided to cook our own FIRST Thanksgiving dinner this year. It turned out amazing and we had such a wonderful day. We had a Brown Sugar + Pineapple Ham, Mashed Potatoes + Gravy, Stuffing, Yams + Marshmallows, and Rolls. Plus we had a gigantic assortment of pies! It was delicious! Mom stayed over last night & helped with the cooking too. And she's even going to stay the night again tonight! Lucky me! It will be so nice not to be lonely. Love my family! I wish the rest of them could have been here. Maybe next year!
Day 23: I am so thankful for Luna's laundry soap. One wiff of her clean laundry and it takes me back to her newborn days. The smell of that could make me smile so big and cry even on my happiest of days. Love you Luna bean.
Day 24: Those times i get to be an older sister. Even if it's something small.
Day 25: In all seriousness i am thankful for Pinterest. It serves so many purposes in my life. Inspiration to get off my butt. Ideas for every project I will ever do. Creativity when i'm in need of it. A source for thousands of mom's sharing their parenting tips and advice. A source for money, time, and supply saving tips. It literally has so much to offer. Even if i don't do everything i pin, i know someone who follows me or someone who follows them will need it. I can't say enough about how much i love Pinterest. But i'm sure it's pretty obvious with how often my pins pop up on my Facebook LOL.
Day 26: Our warm bed.
Day 27: I'm thankful i have big shoulders. Not always but sometimes.
Day 28: Memories. Closest Things to My Heart. Most Cherished Possessions. I only wish my body didn't pick and choose when i get to remember them all. That is the most scary reality in my life. The possibililty of having them ripped away so easily is terrifying. Having them is such a precious thing.
Day 29: Acceptance. I'm Always Chasing It. When i finally
Day 18: I'm thankful for my sweet husband. Yep, once again. Sorry folks. I am entirely too grateful i have a man who accepts me and loves me for who i am. Especially when i am sick or hurting. I know it has to be annoying after awhile but he never shows it.
Day 19: I'm thankful that at some point Luna will take a nap today. And shortly after, later on tonight i will be able to go to sleep for the day. Woof.
Day 20: Grateful to have a counselor who talks me off of numerous "cliffs".
Day 21: Thankful for my sweet little girl. Poor girl is teething and going through a growth spurt. Woke up at 11 and went back to sleep at 3 for almost 3 1/2 more hours. Poor thing. Here's hoping she feels better for tomorrow!
Day 22: We decided to cook our own FIRST Thanksgiving dinner this year. It turned out amazing and we had such a wonderful day. We had a Brown Sugar + Pineapple Ham, Mashed Potatoes + Gravy, Stuffing, Yams + Marshmallows, and Rolls. Plus we had a gigantic assortment of pies! It was delicious! Mom stayed over last night & helped with the cooking too. And she's even going to stay the night again tonight! Lucky me! It will be so nice not to be lonely. Love my family! I wish the rest of them could have been here. Maybe next year!
Day 23: I am so thankful for Luna's laundry soap. One wiff of her clean laundry and it takes me back to her newborn days. The smell of that could make me smile so big and cry even on my happiest of days. Love you Luna bean.
Day 24: Those times i get to be an older sister. Even if it's something small.
Day 25: In all seriousness i am thankful for Pinterest. It serves so many purposes in my life. Inspiration to get off my butt. Ideas for every project I will ever do. Creativity when i'm in need of it. A source for thousands of mom's sharing their parenting tips and advice. A source for money, time, and supply saving tips. It literally has so much to offer. Even if i don't do everything i pin, i know someone who follows me or someone who follows them will need it. I can't say enough about how much i love Pinterest. But i'm sure it's pretty obvious with how often my pins pop up on my Facebook LOL.
Day 26: Our warm bed.
Day 27: I'm thankful i have big shoulders. Not always but sometimes.
Day 28: Memories. Closest Things to My Heart. Most Cherished Possessions. I only wish my body didn't pick and choose when i get to remember them all. That is the most scary reality in my life. The possibililty of having them ripped away so easily is terrifying. Having them is such a precious thing.
Day 29: Acceptance. I'm Always Chasing It. When i finally
get it the relief is amazing. When i finally accept myself will be the defining moment in my life. I hope i can get around to that soon.
Day 30: Peace of Mind. Taking a Time Out. For once instead of my body taking control in a bad way it helped me take a little siesta. I'm just hoping i adjust soon and it's not a bad thing. The past few weeks have been so hard. I'm lucky to have my amazing husband, mom, and counselor. I'll keep crossing my fingers for an opening to this darkness.
Day 30: Peace of Mind. Taking a Time Out. For once instead of my body taking control in a bad way it helped me take a little siesta. I'm just hoping i adjust soon and it's not a bad thing. The past few weeks have been so hard. I'm lucky to have my amazing husband, mom, and counselor. I'll keep crossing my fingers for an opening to this darkness.
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