Tonight i find myself laying here in bed a ball of mixed emotions. I did Yoga for an hour and half tonight just to calm my nerves. Bry has his first fight tomorrow night and i'm being brave and actually going. I won't lie i'm not sure if i'm going to be able to watch. But i wouldn't miss it for the world. I am so proud of him and all that he has worked so hard for. And i am happy he has had an amazing mentor Gregg McFarland and all the other amazing fighters/teachers that train with him. It's actually a Muay Thai fight which normally he'd be doing an MMA fight. But he was offered this spur of the moment and decided to take it. Turns out that it's a 135 Amateur Title Fight. And it's also the main event of the night. Pretty flattering that he was offered it for his first fight. I'm so proud of him.
More than anything i am happy to see that he has found something he is passionate about. Especially something that is healthy! But i still find myself laying here trying to figure out how the hell i am going to remain calm. As far as instincts go my immediate instinct is to attack haha! He is so much a part of me that it's almost as if i am also in the ring. It's the he hurts i hurt mentality. I'm thankful he has really put in the work and time though. Especially for such a short notice fight! He has been working his ass off and coming home beaten up and sore. I've definitely been giving quite a few massages and waking up out of dead sleep to him groaning as he rolls over. It is so hard to see him that way. I am doing my best to support him though. I know he really wants this and it's a good outlet for him. He isn't really one to express his feelings and it takes a lot if he does. So training really helps him to get his mind of all the chaos and to release all the nonsense. I'm so proud of him for choosing something healthy to release it all. I wish he was more sure of himself. I think he really doubts that he has skill and has come so far.
More than anything i am happy to see that he has found something he is passionate about. Especially something that is healthy! But i still find myself laying here trying to figure out how the hell i am going to remain calm. As far as instincts go my immediate instinct is to attack haha! He is so much a part of me that it's almost as if i am also in the ring. It's the he hurts i hurt mentality. I'm thankful he has really put in the work and time though. Especially for such a short notice fight! He has been working his ass off and coming home beaten up and sore. I've definitely been giving quite a few massages and waking up out of dead sleep to him groaning as he rolls over. It is so hard to see him that way. I am doing my best to support him though. I know he really wants this and it's a good outlet for him. He isn't really one to express his feelings and it takes a lot if he does. So training really helps him to get his mind of all the chaos and to release all the nonsense. I'm so proud of him for choosing something healthy to release it all. I wish he was more sure of himself. I think he really doubts that he has skill and has come so far.
I'm ready to see him kick some ass and let it all out. And i'm ready for him to really see himself like we all do. Bry has the biggest heart of anyone i know. So caring and helpful to everyone in his life. I'm ready for it all to be returned in full to him. SO anxious but i will make it through. I love you Bryzer.
-kenz.
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