Milo & Luna

Being a mom is one of the hardest jobs in the world! You're underpaid, overworked, and your boss is a slave driver! Sometimes i get so overwhelmed and want to just rip my hair out. But then there are moments that just make all the others seem like nothing. And then she slaps me across the face for fun ha ha ha. This past week Luna turned one and it seems like already she is bigger. She acts more grown up and plays different. For example she got a princess castle for her birthday and she'll sit and have them talking to each other. It is so cute! She does it with her stuffed animals now too. I can't believe it has been a year since we had her. That was one of the most awful things I've ever gone through. I think it's half the reason i am considering not having more. The other half is that i had the worst postpartum depression. I almost burned a couple bridges with my own family. I was extremely depressed, crazy, stressed. But i keep getting the feeling that i'm not done. I still have a little boy to carry and be a mommy to. I keep getting hints and nudges. I've gotta say it reminds me of when i was picking names for Luna. I kept having her name pop up in my head and the feeling like that is her name! It can't be anything else. Almost as if we'd already met before hand. Sounds a little crazy but it's the only way to describe it. Just like the feeling i get with Bry. Anyway, i keep having dreams, feelings, and almost like i'm being tapped on the shoulder. " hey mom, quit saying you don't want me. you aren't done! i'm not here yet. " That's exactly how it feels. So Milo....where ever you are sweetheart don't worry. I'm not done yet. Just give me a little bit :)