There is nothing sweeter

My life has been a little hectic the past two weeks or so that's why i haven't posted. I think that I've had quite the epiphany lately. I've come to realize that i am madly in love with my husband. I know that sounds a little insane because of course i am right? That's why we got married. But sometimes i think that you take your other half for granite. I know i sure have. But this progress we've made and how close we've gotten in the past few weeks has been so nice. I really love spending time with him and seeing him. Things have changed so much for the better and i am so happy. I do wish that it wasn't in these circumstances that is for sure. But what's done is done and we can only go up from here. What i really wish i could wrap my head around is how did we get here? At what point did our relationship start spiraling out of control like this? It's a crazy thing to think about because you aren't always aware of it when it's happening. Yes, you do notice little things; But not always that it's taking you to a dark place you never want to go. I think that if you do get to that place and can climb out of the ashes with a bright new beautiful bond then it's real. There is nothing sweeter than real, hold in your hands, strong love. It's not something you want to throw away easily. Always savor what you have and never consider tossing it aside unless it's really worth it. I will say this the grass is NEVER greener on the other side. Even if your grass goes yellow and dies all you need to remember is it just needs to be watered. Beautiful and worth while things never come easy. If it wasn't hard then it wouldn't be worth it! I just want to say Stephen Bryant Fullmer that i love you without a shadow of a doubt. You are my forever, for always, and no matter what.

I carry your heart with me; I carry it in my heart
I am never without it
Anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling

I fear no fate; for you are my fate, my sweet
I want no world; for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than a soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart
I carry it in my heart