Engagements

 Once again these are just a few of my favorites. There are too many to put in one post.

Bridals

 These are just a few! There are so many more! Way too many to put all in one post!

Luna Emery Fullmer

I finally remembered where all my photo CD's were. So i thought i would post a few blogs with a few of my favorites from each. The first one is Little Miss Luna's from the day or so after she was born. She was 5lbs 14oz. So itty bitty!

At first i never thought i would get them. It made me so upset. Luckily when i emailed someone from Bella Baby Photography they had them archived. I was so happy!  

I remember so much about that day. It was a pretty horrific delivery but the reward was more than worth it. I'd been having contractions, for 3 or 4 days before that but it wouldn't dilate me. I kept going into Labor & Delivery at Utah Valley Regional Medical Center. But they wouldn't keep me, you have to be at least 3cm to stay. At this point i was almost wanting people to just get rid of me. 

Finally on April 20th i got an amazing nurse who 
fought for me to stay. There was no way i could 
keep going through that crap! They decided to 
start me on Pitocin to see if that would help it 
move along faster. I started around 3:30ish in
the afternoon. I'm not sure what time it was but i got the epidural sometime later that evening. The only reason i am thankful i got it was it prevented me from having a seizure. I regret it because it didn't work. I kept telling them i could feel my entire right leg and they didn't do much about it. Come to find out the machine had shut off. Oh well! That's a lesson learned the hard way! Next time i will know better!
After pushing for 2 1/2 hours we finally got our sweet baby girl. I have never felt so relieved! We found out then that her umbilical cord was only 8 inches long. So every time i'd push she'd pop down then i'd stop and she'd pop right back up.  It was so hard but worth it. During the labor her heartbeat kept dipping because of this. So once she was born they had to have NICU come in and do the CPAP on her. She was just fine but they had to touch all their bases.
At 3:23am we became proud parents to our gorgeous itty bitty Luna. I remember them letting me hold her for just a second. I was so emotional and drugged up that the only thing i could think about and say was "IS SHE OKAY?!?" Thank goodness she was.  I can remember when i started crowning and Bry could see her head he started jumping up and down. " Oh my gosh there she is!!! "  It was the cutest thing I've seen. He was so excited and could hardly freaking stand waiting any longer. But how can you blame him? She spent 10 months in the belly then a 12 hr delivery from hell!

Afterwards my placenta wouldn't deliver. This is where my lovely birth of my first child turned into a cow birth. It gets a little graphic from here. If you have a weak stomach don't keep reading. He had to cut me and go in elbow deep. He kept yanking and pushing down on my ribs. It was the most horrific thing I've ever experienced. Apparently i also hemorrhaged. I remember the doctor having this really panicked look on his face and yelling for the anesthesiologist. They drugged me up really

good but i could still feel him shoving down on my ribs. He finally got it to detach and they sewed me up. Talk about insane! I was so happy to just get to my room and lay there in the dark silence. That may sound a little selfish but i was so exhausted. Bry went with her to give her a bath and get her all cleaned up. He wouldn't leave her side at all. I think he came in once to check on me before he brought her to our room ha ha ha! He was so proud and happy. I don't think she was in the nursery much after that. We couldn't get enough of her!

Bry, my mom, my mother in law, and my father in law were all there during the birth. When i started pushing i had them all go outside though. It was definitely a moment i wanted to share with just Bry. Especially since it was our first baby. Despite all the troubles along the way it was one of the most beautiful experiences we've ever shared. He was the best coach. Even though he had to hear the lady next door who was going natural scream. But if i hadn't had him there i would have gone crazy!

 

 We had so many family and friends come visit us! I was overwhelmed with all the support! I think the best was the grandparents. They couldn't get enough of our new little girl. Before last August she was the first and only girl. Luckily Bry's sister had Olive so Luna has at least one little girl cousin! Maybe one of my brothers with have another baby and it will be girl! I'll keep my fingers crossed :) Maybe one day it will just happen and they won't have a choice! ha ha ha!

No matter how hard that day was i wouldn't trade it for anything! She is the closest thing to my heart and so precious to me. Mommy loves you sweetheart! You are my everything!

Bryzer

So my amazing husband is finally getting some recognition for his skills. A few days ago at work he got some great news! They decided to make him the head of all the brakes. Which means a raise and he's finally getting recognized for what he can do. I guess they don't do brakes at Jiffy Lube but have decided to at the one in Heber. I think mainly because they did before when it was Pennzoil and the manager who did them was still there. Luckily for Bry he put in his two weeks. So they chose Bry to do them. We couldn't find his certification from college but they're still sending him to take the test on Friday. I am so proud words can't even describe it! He's been working so hard and never really given credit for what he is capable of. This may not be exactly what he was wanting or hoping for as far as jobs go but i think it's great! He's not going to be so unnoticed anymore. Other people might not think it's that big of a deal but it is to me! It honestly makes me tear up every time i think about it. Poor guy. Anyway, i just wanted to brag up my man for a minute. I am so proud of you Bryant Fullmer! I love you sweetheart :

Windy City

Today of all days i got up earlier and was showered and ready by 9:30. I'm never like that! Usually i lag around and 11:30 i'll jump in the shower. Luckily it was for a good reason. My brother & sister in law showed up and forced me to fishing haha! So we started out at Deer Creek Lake but it was too windy and nothing was biting. On the way out i stepped on a fish hook that went straight through the flip flop into my heal. It hurt so bad! I'm hoping i don't have to get a shot in the butt. I know afterwards i felt so sick and weird. I'm feeling better now though. As soon as we were out we headed down to my Father in Law's house on the river. I love that place! When Bry and I first got together we stayed with him for awhile. Those were some of the best times. Neither of us were working and we'd just relax all day long. So we headed down there to see if we could get any bites and if it would be less windy. But unfortunately it was even more windy! Freaking Utah weather pisses me off sometimes. But all in all today was really fun! I just laid there and enjoyed the sun along with Luna.

Krishna is a crazy lady and just walked out into the river with her shoes and everything. I bet that was so cold. I miss those guys! We hardly ever see them anymore it seems like. Hopefully now that it's summer we'll be able to start doing things more often. I'm so excited to be able to take Luna out and have her go on walks with me. I wish she'd start walking so she could just walk down. When we took her to the park last week she loved swinging! I think it gave her the butterflies. She'd go up and laugh so hard when she'd come back down. I love my little girl. She's so active and fun like her daddy. I'm definitely glad she isn't like me in that way! I guess i was really active when i was younger. But once i got about 15 it kinda went downhill. Now that i'm on Lyrica though i like to get out and go walking a lot! I think life will start turning around more for us! 

Milo & Luna

Being a mom is one of the hardest jobs in the world! You're underpaid, overworked, and your boss is a slave driver! Sometimes i get so overwhelmed and want to just rip my hair out. But then there are moments that just make all the others seem like nothing. And then she slaps me across the face for fun ha ha ha. This past week Luna turned one and it seems like already she is bigger. She acts more grown up and plays different. For example she got a princess castle for her birthday and she'll sit and have them talking to each other. It is so cute! She does it with her stuffed animals now too. I can't believe it has been a year since we had her. That was one of the most awful things I've ever gone through. I think it's half the reason i am considering not having more. The other half is that i had the worst postpartum depression. I almost burned a couple bridges with my own family. I was extremely depressed, crazy, stressed. But i keep getting the feeling that i'm not done. I still have a little boy to carry and be a mommy to. I keep getting hints and nudges. I've gotta say it reminds me of when i was picking names for Luna. I kept having her name pop up in my head and the feeling like that is her name! It can't be anything else. Almost as if we'd already met before hand. Sounds a little crazy but it's the only way to describe it. Just like the feeling i get with Bry. Anyway, i keep having dreams, feelings, and almost like i'm being tapped on the shoulder. " hey mom, quit saying you don't want me. you aren't done! i'm not here yet. " That's exactly how it feels. So Milo....where ever you are sweetheart don't worry. I'm not done yet. Just give me a little bit :)

Memories

One thing i didn't want to add to the last post was about memories. This is a subject i could talk about for the longest time. Every memory i have means so much to me. Even the smallest and most meaningless of them all. After i had been having my seizures for quite awhile i had one to make the others seem like a cake walk. The seizure itself wasn't too bad i suppose but the aftermath was indescribable. I'd done the usual routine but afterwards i lost consciousness. What i woke up to was......as i said indescribable. It is something i would never wish upon anyone. I woke up to nothing. Absolutely nothing. I had no memory of anything. It's called Disassociative Amnesia. To put it simply my brain had decided there was too much going on and shut off. I didn't know my name, birthday, or anything. Bry then called an ambulance and took me to the hospital. When we arrived there they didn't do much other than make sure i had no brain damage and treat the pain. They released me and we went home after that. I've never felt so numb in my entire life. It had to be one of the most intense experiences I've ever gone through. Thinking about it even now gives me the chills. It took over two months or so for everything to finally come back. But during that two months it wasn't exactly easy. The only way i could remember things was if my brain "allowed" me to. Or i guess you could say if it was safe to remember. I think the craziest part was how i would remember things. It was almost like I was looking through a photo album for each memory. I'd see the photos in my head. It was so hard to just wait for things. My counselor told me that pushing it might make it harder or worse. So I got to just wait in limbo. At the time this all happened, I was actually in the process of planning my wedding as well. What exactly do you do after that? Hi i don't know anyone or myself but let's get married! I think the best part was there was something about Bry that felt familiar. The only way to describe it is that my heart knew him but my brain didn't. Kind of a crazy feeling but you know its a real one when you're in a situation like that. I think that was another moment that defined us as a couple. I'll never forget that. So after that two months even though i hadn't fully recovered i knew that he was my husband and it was okay. No matter what it would be okay. So i decided to just trust him and take a leap ! (:

I just want to say thank you to everyone who made today so special! I have the best support system, family, & friends! I appreciate each and every one of you and all the things you have done! Today wouldn't have been possible if not for you! I feel so blessed and lucky to have been able to give my sweet little girl the part she deserved! She got some great presents, cash, and a face full of raspberry cake filling! The only down side is she wasn't feeling so well! But she is a trooper and pulled through! Bry did some grilling and we made a lot of sweets last night! Everything looked so amazing! Even though i didn't do everything i had planned or how i had planned it turned out to be just how it was meant to be! After the party was over and we were cleaning up we released some balloons. I had the idea to write a note to Gabriel Lancia 's son so we could celebrate with him. I also did one for my grandparents, a birthday wish for Luna, and some positive affirmation ones. It was very cool! We got pictures on so many cameras and phones you would have thought she was a celebrity. So it may take a few days or a week to upload them for those of you who couldn't make it! I'm sorry if it takes awhile! Thank you all again & Love you all so much! : )

All in all today was a very special day for my little family. I can not believe that a year ago today at 3:23 a.m. i had a sweet little baby girl. And our lives have never been the same since then! Things may get hectic and overwhelming sometimes, but you are the best thing besides your daddy that has ever happened to me Luna Bean! I am so thankful and proud to call you mine. You are such a sweet, patient, and loving little girl. Thank you for letting me be your mommy. There is nothing better or more fulfilling. I love you sweetheart to the moon and back!


I will admit if you had asked me a year ago, if i thought i would be where i am now i would have said no. But does that me i regret choosing to try for a baby? HELL NO! Sometimes i do get so overwhelmed i could rip my hair out and just scream. But there are days that are so good and amazing that the others wash themselves out after time. (not always) but hey without kids you still have bad days! It's building up the strength, patience, and sweetness to be able to handle it  all! I say if you can survive the first year then you can do it! Being a mom has changed my life drastically. My daughter is the closest thing to my heart. She's a spoiled little girl! But she is mine. And i love her no matter how she is! I always will. Anyway...just a little bit to get my thankfulness out in the open!! : ) 

A Long Winding Road

When I think back to when I first started having my seizures there are only a few things that come to mind. Those are pain, numbness, stress, confusion, and vulnerability. It was about 3 years ago in July. Bry and I had only been together a month or two. I’d had gone to a doctor visit and been on an anti-depressant for about a week but I didn’t like the way I felt so I stopped taking it. Word of advice never do that before talking to your doctor first. After I stopped taking it the seizures or the “twitch” started. I went to the doctor and they said my Vega nerve in my chest was pinched. He then proceeded to prescribe me Valium. That did a whole lot of nothing except drug the crap out of me. So everything kept reoccurring without any solution or relief.  I remember practically living in the hospital. Up until I got pregnant I was in and out of the hospital all the time. Not that I wasn’t when I was pregnant also. But I think I tried to keep my stress under control more. I will say that the worst seizures I had were when I was pregnant. I would have to sit there and do kick counts afterwards to make sure she was still moving. If not I had to eat or drink something sugary to get her hyper. If neither of those worked it was off to the hospital which we did have to do a few times. I’ve never been so scared and freaked out in my entire life. This didn’t help the situation at all.

For a while seizures controlled everything I did. I was a walking zombie. My big motto now is “I have seizures, seizures are not my life.” There are few things that can give a person comfort when it comes to this type of a situation. Especially when you are me; so high strung or wound like a top some would say. I think the worst part was no one would ever diagnose me. They would give me all kinds of medications and send me on my way. I never felt like the problem was going to get solved. Until one visit to Primary Children’s where someone suggested I might be having seizures (still no diagnosis). At a later visit to The U of U I was finally diagnosed with Pseudo Seizures. When you look it up you’re going to read a bunch of nonsense. But what they explained to me was they were brought on by stress. This made a hell of a lot of sense. As I said I’m wound like a top. Basically when my brain is “stressed” it misfires. For everyone else the get a normal reaction like sweating, jittery, heavy breathing or whatever it may be. Imagine your stress is walking down a sidewalk in your brain. At the end of that sidewalk is your reaction to that stress. It keeps on walking all the way to the reaction and Wala! In my brain I get half way there, trip on a rock, fall off the curb, and get hit by a semi. It’s the simplest thing but so complex. I ended up going to counseling after many suggestions that this was my only option. I still go to this day and actually enjoy going. Even if it wasn’t solving the entire problem I know it was helping. Just not entirely; I still needed a nudge.

 It went on like this for the longest time. Then my insurance ran out so I couldn’t go to the Neurologist when things progressed into full body seizures. They require cash up front or you aren’t able to be seen. But I was still able to go to the emergency room when things happened. The problem was it was a very expensive way to never solve anything.  Up until 3 or so months ago I never saw a neurologist. We did end up deciding to spend the money out of pocket because they had gotten so much worse and my “treatment” at the time wasn’t working. So we went and saw the doctor and he recommended I get another EEG. I’d had one before that showed my seizures weren’t epileptic. But this was when they were a twitch. We didn’t know it because they had progressed if they would show up this time or what results we’d get. Sometimes the whole process you go through feels like you are a hamster in a ball. You just keep rolling and rolling. No matter how fast or slow it’s the same thing over and over. It was a relief to hear that nothing had changed but at the same time it wasn’t. I still had no answers as to what I could do to stop them.

                During the time that I was waiting to go in for my next appointment with them i had to go to the emergency room. This was sometime afterwards and I had moved back up to my mother in laws. We had some friends over and we were playing cards. Everyone but me was drinking because I was told it increased the likelihood of me having a seizure. But every now and then I’ll have a sip of someone’s drink. But it is very rare. For whatever reason on this night I decided I’d have a shot of vodka in my orange juice. Within thirty to forty-five minutes of this I started feeling like I do right before I have a seizure. So I went into our room and sat there for a minute just in case. About five minutes later I had my first one and ten minutes after that I’d had four of them. It was pretty overwhelming. I’ve had a bad back for quite a while now but after these episodes it makes it pretty unbearable. Up until the next night I was able to stand it. But then it got to where I couldn’t just ignore it. So we made a trip to the local hospital in Heber. Mainly I just needed something for the pain and didn’t plan on the bomb that was about to go off in my face. My doctor went through all the basic questions I’d been asked before and gave me some medicine to manage the pain. But then he asked if I had ever had an MRI done of my back. I told him I was sure I had. But I’ve had so many things done in the past for my back, chest, and for the seizures I wasn’t quite sure. He proceeded to look in my records to see if he could find anything. Now this is where the story takes a hard left and immediate right. Are you sitting down? I highly suggest it. I know I’m glad I was at the time. He pulls up my file and finds an MRI from almost exactly two years ago. In the results it says I have a bulging disc exactly where my pain is and some other technical terms I can’t explain. Now this would have been no big deal had I known about it or been treating it. I was never told about any of it when the results came back. Also, no other doctor in the two years afterwards had ever seen it or even cared to look it up like this one had. What …. The …. Actual …. F@%&.... Right? I was blown away and didn’t really know where to go from there. Luckily I’m not the doctor!

There is a happy ending to this story believe it or not so don’t get too depressed on me. The ending to this long winding torturous road is actually quite happy. The doctor decided I need to try Lyrica which treats seizures, chronic nerve pain, and fibromyalgia. I have all three so it’s amazing for me! The only down fall was it makes me really drowsy and ditzy. So during the day he had me try Tramadol which I’d actually had before. All in all I couldn’t really lose unless the Lyrica didn't work. Luckily for me it did work and has changed my life drastically. I am happier, more energetic, outgoing, and in less pain. I’ve also let down my guard that I always have up with people. It’s like a weight was taken right off my shoulders and I’ve been able to become the person I've always been inside. The other great part is since I’ve been on it I’ve been seizure, stress, and smoke free. The only words to describe it are amazing! A couple days after the ER visit I followed up with my primary physician who suggested we get another MRI. This is the only bad part to the whole ending. I know, I know I had to go and get all Debbie downer again. I can’t get it until I have insurance because they are so expensive. I am in the process of getting insurance now I’m just waiting for the approval or denial letter. Keeps your fingers crossed! I think our odds are good!

I think there is a defining moment for the beginning of every story. It always starts out with a boy then a girl. But the important part is what binds them together. What moment defines them as a couple forever? For our story it was the day I first saw Bry. Call me cliché but it’s the honest truth. Notice I say saw him. There was a moment where I just knew. Almost like everything stood still. Pieces were finally put together and it all made sense. People always say you’ll “just know”. It’s always for the most important things. So when you get that nudging, nagging can’t get it out of your head feeling...don’t ignore it!  Trust me you won’t regret it.

I met him through his cousin who happened to be my best friend at the time. It was the night of our graduation. He was at a party one of our friends was throwing to kick off our new found “freedom”. It’s always so funny to tell this story because what I described above doesn’t match. You would have had to have been in my shoes. You would have also had to know me at the time. I wasn't this new bright, talkative, happy, outgoing person I am as of 2 months ago. I was the girl who flew under the radar. Too shy to ever make appearances or introduce myself. There aren’t really words for my personality. It was very interesting to say the least. Anyway, flash back to May 29, 2009. We showed up to the party and found my lovely husband quite intoxicated. I remember thinking who are you and why have we never met? Or why hasn’t Paige ever told me about you before? It was so strange to think we’d lived in the same town for all our lives and never even so much as bumped into each other. The circumstances of me coming back to Heber and even crossing each other’s paths are just crazy! I remember the feeling I had from that moment on. I was so nervous. I honestly couldn’t look him in the eyes or hardly talk to him. But there was this familiarity with him. Almost like we knew each other already and were reuniting. I can’t speak for him but this is the feeling I had. Talk about intense.

We ended up going back to his house and spending the night. One of the funniest memories from that night and the only one I will tell you is when Bry tried to kiss me. Paige ended up getting sick and falling asleep early. So we were both awake but I think on the verge of falling asleep. Imagine three people on a queen size bed. It wasn’t very comfortable. As we’re both lying there he leans over to try and steal a kiss. I don’t think I even gave it one thought. I asked, “What are you doing?” He then replies, “Well, I was going to kiss you. But I guess not…” I have never wanted to laugh so hard but I was so nervous at the same time. I then explained to him that we were both drunk and I respected the both of us more than that. I didn’t want to waste something good on a drunk kiss. Seems logical right? And that was all she wrote…..

After that we were inseparable. I don’t know if we’ve spent more than a week apart since then. That was 3 years ago in June. It doesn’t seem like it’s been that long at all! Time always flies by when you aren’t paying too much attention. I won’t lie we aren’t perfect nor do we try to be. But if I try to imagine what it would be like without him it doesn’t seem possible. I think another reason we are so close is he stuck by my side when things got tough. About 2 or 3 months after we started dating I started having seizures. They originally looked like a twitch. My right shoulder would jerk really hard. Super weird looking hah! But as time went on they progressed into full body seizures. Not the most amazing thing to have slammed onto your plate. I had the best support system anyone could ask for though. Instead of saying this is too much to handle Bry was right there by my side through every little detail. We became the best friends.

But that is another story! (:

You Are My Sunshine

I’ve decided I’m going to draw and paint my own nursery art. Instead of buying someone else’s online or even designing a wall decal. Both of those options are easier but more expensive. I will be able to add my own touches and make them exactly how I want. Hopefully this will work out the way I want and not backfire. I’m thinking of doing something similar to the “You Are My Sunshine” nursery art on Etsy I posted previously. It shouldn’t be too hard. It’s all a matter of time and effort. When i was at Hobby Lobby today, getting some more birthday supplies i found this really cool paint. It's Soy paint. Normally it's quite expensive but i found it for $1.00! So i grabbed white, yellow, and lavender. I can honestly say I’m excited to do this for her room. I don’t draw enough. I used to all the time before Luna was born but now I am constantly chasing her around. She’s such a busy body! Hence the reason I do most of my activities, crafts, writing, drawing, and basically anything at night. Good thing she doesn’t wake up at the crack of dawn!

There is a reason behind my choice. I have always loved this song. My mom used to sing it to me when I was younger. There were so many times when I was sad and it would cheer me right up. I think I am the one sibling of three that really enjoyed hearing my mom sing. In fact we sang together a lot. But as for this song i remember it mostly when I was much younger. I’m not sure of the reason but there is memory I remember most. We were in Park City buying a hamster for my Brother Dustin’s birthday. I was so upset I didn’t get one or have one of my own.  The only parts I remember are the who, where, and why. I was upset and crying. Then my mom started singing. At first it was one of those things moms do and you keep crying. But then you start to really listen and crying doesn't seem very important or necessary anymore.

Memories are so strange. I wonder why there are certain things that one person takes away from a memory that many people share. Each individual taking away their own selection of memories; the feeling, pictures, sounds, smells, and tastes that all go along with it. Such a strange thing to think about but I wonder why? I guess because we’re all different. Each person sees things from their own looking glass. We all think, learn, and develop in our own way. I’m definitely one to cherish each and every memory I have. But that’s a story for another day! (: 

A birthday party already? My Oh My.

I can't believe it's only 4 days away. I have so many plans i still need to finish.

I don't know how i'm going to do it but i will do it!

I recently went to Zurcher's and Michael's and bought tons of supplies.
I also found some great things on Etsy that i loved.
Then again what can't you find on Etsy that you love?

Here are a couple things I have in mind:

I purchased mini clothespins to attach to the baker's twine on the balloons then clip index cards on. Then guests can write their birthday wishes for Luna. These will be a great addition to the memory book.

I wanted to make felt crowns so there was some sort of underlining theme. These seemed pretty easy. It's just a matter of taking the time to make them. I found these pictures of a girl and boy crown idea. I did want to do little boy crowns seeing as i have nephews and friends with little boys. Not sure if i'll follow through but we'll see!

I also purchased some paper pom poms at Michael's. Then found some paper lanterns with paper butterflies to attach at Zurcher's. I figured they were cute and i could put them in her room afterwards. I will say I've found many DIYs for the pom poms that were very easy! I was just in a time crunch and didn't have time to hunt down all the things i needed.


I also went to Hobby Lobby awhile back and found some great black and white party trays for the food. I found a small pink wicker basket to put the napkins and silverware in.
Again i can use the basket in her room afterwards. That was the idea when i purchased a lot of the decorations. I wanted to be able to re purpose a lot of it. Otherwise i couldn't really justify it.


Food For Thought

I'm hoping for the colors of the pink cake.
But i purchased cake pans for the size, shape, and height of the three identical cakes.

My next lovely time consuming idea is to use Mason Jars for drinking glasses. I know it's probably not the best cost wise idea given that there are over 50 guests invited. Yes, you read right that's 50. I know not all fifty will show up but i grabbed close to enough to plan on it. Now if you ever have this crazy idea like i did you'll soon realize it is very spendy! While i was shopping around for a great price; I found some by Better Homes and Gardens at Walmart that are similar to the quilted 8oz Kerr jars. I got 48 jars for $20 dollars and some change. This included the lids which isn't very easy to find for a good price.

Next i purchased some pink/white and grey/white stripe paper straws from Dime Store Buddy on Etsy. They look similar to the ones above. Then some black/white baker's twine from Zurcher's. I will use it to attach a number one on the jars like the picture above with the cheers tag.

I plan on filling the jars with some pink lemonade.

 My mom actually found me this beverage dispenser at a thrift store for $10 and it's $40 online! What a steal! I wanted  to put the lemons in there like the picture above. What a great way to make a simple thing better.

I want to do some lovely pink cake pops like these on the same grey/white paper straws.

Also some of what i keep telling people are "pizza pops". 

Again on the grey/white paper straws. 

How cute are these?

So do you feel as stressed as me? Hopefully i can pull my act together!
Pictures to follow!